Dec. 8th  

   Your discipline and your sense of responsibility find a favorable echo with the people who are close to you today. The force that the Pope exerts is beneficial, and under his influence your loved ones understand your need for security and are doing everything to reassure you as much as they can. By bringing you concrete proof of their love they are contributing to dispel your doubts and your anxieties on this day. Your professional ambition is being galvanized by the Devil and channeled by the Pope. This will help you to attain your goals today and to work efficiently and intelligently. You've got energy to spare, but by staying calm you'll be able to weigh the pros and cons of all your decisions before acting on them. It's a well balanced day with no risk of failure looming. 

   

    Dec.9th

    Your love life is in the doldrums today, Cindy. The Tower and the High Priestess are having a destabilizing, even destructive influence on your relationships. If you've already got problems, things aren't about to improve. But if things are going well, take care the house of cards doesn't collapse. There's only one solution: stay calm and rational. Don't allow yourself to be overwhelmed by the aggressiveness and violence of people's emotions. At work, you're kicking up a fuss, doling out harsh criticism to those around you - and some people could react fiercely. Today you've got a gift for turning your friends in to enemies. Under the combined influence of the World and the Tower, you take ill-calculated risks and allow your aggression free rein. You'll get further will a more gentle approach.

    While a degree of control is valuable when things seem to be running amok, the Four of Pentacles suggests that one's efforts to bring order to chaos threatens to evolve into an overly conservative, inflexible attitude. It is a prompt to weigh one's level of control over a situation and to ask whether they are stifling their own, or others', creativity. Sometimes change is needed, and being closed to new ideas leaves one inflexible and unable to see new and promising possibilities....

    Dec.10th

    You'll be tempted to eat the forbidden fruit today! The combination of the Lovers and the Devil suggests that you have a passionate desire for two people, but are finding it quite impossible to choose between them, dear Cindy. Will your conscience be strong enough to keep you on the straight and narrow! In the professional sphere, you feel a mounting sense of frustration. There is still no end in sight for on-going negotiations, your projects are stalling, and you have the unpleasant feeling of being totally at the mercy of your superiors to get anything done. Try not to brood and see everything from the dark side (the Lovers), but instead exploit the powers of your imagination (the Star) in order to come up with an idea that will enthuse the people who are currently plotting against you.

     Queen of Pentacles

    Description: The Queen inwardly embodies the qualities of the suit of Pentacles, making her generous, reliable, tenacious and nurturing. She is an earth mother, similar in many ways to the Empress of the Major Arcana. She is like the ideal grandmother in many ways, one who is glad to see others and quick to invite them inside, out of the bad weather. She is both practical and sensible, one who takes care of problems quickly, and with little fuss simply because "it needs doing." Drawing the Queen of Pentacles is a prompt to inwardly emulate her, thinking and feeling as she does. Ask whether the self is coming from a space of warmth, caring, generosity and loyalty or allowing one to be humorless, distant, stingy and inconstant. The Queen can also represent an actual person, male or female, who embodies her traits, or an atmosphere of security and trust. Reversed she can indicate a situation or person that appears as supportive and trustworthy. But in reality this is not the case. She is one to be guarded against, and is capable of causing harm. Act with caution.

 

 

 

 

 

「海が見たい」なんてつぶやき
　僕の勇気を試しているの？
視線はずし　コーヒー飲み干す
　聞こえないフリはできてるかな

もしも　そんなこと知ったなら
アイツは　君と僕　一度に失うから

愛せない　君だけど　僕はまだ夢見てる
溶けるようなK-I-S-S　君に浴びせたい
愛したい　この想いはあふれてく
愛しちゃいけな

時に愛は酷いものだね　出会う早さまで決めてしまう

僕が君のその手をとって
奪い去ったとしても　何かを失うだろう

愛せない　君だから　ココロだけ抱いてたい
本能にK-I-C-K　君に背を向ける
愛したい　この炎は消せないよ
愛しちゃいけない

どの道を行けば　ゴールまで誰も傷つけずに　たどりつける？

愛せない　君だけど　僕はまだ信じてる
いつの日かL-O-V-E　君に伝えたい
愛したい　この想いは止まらない
愛しちゃいけない

we were both young when i first saw you
i close my eyes
and the flashback starts
im standing there
on a balcony of summer air

see the lights,
see the party the ball gowns
i see you make your way through the crowd
you say hello
little did i know

that you were romeo you were throwing pebbles
and my daddy said stay away from juliet
and i was crying on the staircase
begging you please don’t go, and i said

romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
i’ll be waiting all theres left to do is run
you’ll be the prince and i’ll be the princess
its a love story baby just say yes so i sneak out to the garden to see you
we keep quiet because we’re dead if they know
so close your eyes
lets keep this down for a little while
cause you were romeo i was a scarlet letter
and my daddy said stay away from juliet
but you were everything to me
and i was begging you please don’t go and i said

romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
i’ll be waiting all theres left to do is run
you be the prince and i’ll be the princess
its a love story baby just say yes

romeo save me, don’t try to tell me how it feels
this love is difficult, but its so real
don’t be afraid we’ll make it out of this mess
its a love story baby just say yes.

I got tired of waiting
wondering if you were ever coming around
my faith in you was fading
when i met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

romeo save me i’ve been feeling so alone
i keep waiting for you but you never come
is this in my head, i don’t know what to think
he knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

marry me juliet you’ll never have to be alone
i love you and thats all I really know
i talked to your dad you’ll pick out the white dress
its a love story baby just say yes
oh, oh, yes
we were still young when i first saw you

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I'm BaCk To wHo I aM aND wHaT I maDe Of, Is Me.

I suDDenLy ReaLIzeD How eNTHusIasTIc my LIfe Is goInG To Be wITHouT you.

And Now this is the LAST BLOG I'm writing about you.  I pRomIse.

The LasT ONe.

LISTEN THE BITCH WHO NAMES N.B,IT'S BEEN TWO YEARS I HAVE FELL INTO YOU

I THOUGHT MY PSSION WILL IMPRESS YOU,

I THOUGHT YOU'RE THE ONE I COULD TRUST ON.

I THOUGHT I COULD MELT YOUR COLD HEART.

BUT YOU SLAPPED MY FACE AND

PUT YOUR INHUMANITY ON MY DIGNITY 

NOW I FINALLY SEE WHAT IS IN YOU.

THE COLD HEART AND YOUR NEGRO BLOOD.

YOU NASTY NAUGHTY BOY

YOU WILL SEE ONE DAY THAT

TRIED TO DESTROY ME BY YOUR CRUELTY WERE SUCH A WASTE,

BECAUSE ALL YOU DID MEANS NOTHIN' TO ME BUT MADE ME STRONGER,

AND MADE MY SKIN THICKER.

SORRY I'M THE WRONG GIRL YOU HAVE MESSED WITH.

SORRY YOU ARE MAKING TROUBLE FOR YOURSELF,

SORRY YOU WILL FEEL SORRY ONE DAY.

SORRY I CAN'T CHANGE WHO I AM

SORRY YOU WON'T GET RID OF ME.

SORRY YOU CAN'T DESTROY ME.

BECAUSE YOU SUCK IN THIS LIVE SHOW AND

I WILL BRING YOU DOWN WITH MY LITTLE FINGER ONE DAY.

死而复燃的爱情再次被你的残酷与冷血灭亡.

好吧，就让她飞去天堂，

实现这份未完成的遗念,

就让她静静地躺在棺材里，

凝视他，她的挚爱，

做最后的微笑，

直到她窒息，昏迷，以致死亡

意志慢慢消逝，

周围的生气也随之流荡

唯一残留的灵魂，

在无形中演变成虚幻般华丽的想象，

为她的自尊与骄傲奠基，

最终只剩下势力的毒

埋葬，埋葬，

请让我遗忘决裂的牵强，

请允许我为这写满“凄凉”的坟墓献上另一支滴血的白玫瑰

让她们相依在灵魂交错地墓地下

重温那美丽，无辜的天真无邪，

哭诉着残酷与现实如何玷污了这份清纯，

原本完整的心被一把刀温柔而无情地折磨，

它慢慢刺入你的心，优雅而不失风度，

那种感觉是妩媚，是激情，是欲望，

当它从你的心拔出，你才感觉到它带给你的代价，

是无助，是颓废，是崩溃

就是这样，心里总是保存一份温柔而虚伪的幻想，

才能容忍这把刀一次又一次地刺入你的心，

留下的永久地伤痕，无可救药

血还在滴淌，真情还在酝酿

  

每一道伤痕依旧，你已走向前方，

落叶般枯萎的凄凉，

故事结束，

      "It's a raining day,quite bit moody, do you hear the melody ,that I'm calling your name".......

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

   

   How alluring when you see a female pianist dressed magnificently, is sitted before the grand piano,trying to express an melancholy tragedy from those contrasting melodies? An addiction of music engaged my own destiny.

   Home,a single word inspired our souls to endeavor, when we come to this world, home has existed already.Itis predeterminate creatue in our destinies.

  What is Home? Socialogist states it as the smallest cell in the society.Anthroplogist determines as a space createshappiness of two.Litterateur demonstrates "a storage for the mentally treasure". Probably certain people will think it's not deserved to think about it.Yet,here is a story.

   A wealthy man was dead drunk,lay at the entrance of his "castle styled" house, his bodyguard came over and said,"let me walk you home." The man heckled him,"home? Where is my home? You can walk me home?" The bodyguard confused,pointed the "castle house"and said,"isn't that your home over there,sir?" The man pointed his chest vulnerably,then pointed to the luxurious house,whinning intermittently,"that... it...is not .. my home,ittttt is just an architecture of mine."

   We noticed that material richness will definitely give us a visional pleasant sensation,but it is only a temporary sign which advertises yourself as a "new noble in aristocracy." Does it satisfy your desire?Certainly it does, but never make up your mental emptiness.

   Discovering a home which genuinely belongs to us is somewhat defining an allusion of "Fate".Every single one in the world was essentially a homeless nomad.Compare to tose people who rove all oer the world, our only difference to them is we posess an material shell to protect us, we used to call it "home".But it is not always the place offers us peace,warmness and love.

   Home is a harbor where parks those lovely boats with full of emotion;Home is a habitat for our soul and mentality .

  

   The extent of home is logically demonstrating how meaningful your life has been . No matter rich or needy, whoever comes to live in this world,wil undoubtedly have a relation with home.

   There is plenty different opinions about home.But there is an unchangeable truth:Home is ordinary when you possess it,but unrepeatabe when you lose it.